Something rather interesting and yet intense happened to me this weekend. It brought a reform in my inner character and strengthened my goals of excellence. While leaving church, one of the older members fell and hit her head on the ground. The impact of her cranium on the floor resulted in her unconsciousness. While I watched two members of our congregation which happened to be nurses check her, I felt limp and rather depressed. I was not capable and did not hold the capacity in my intellect to even attempt to assist her. Maybe in eight or nine years with my degree, I would be able to. What if my lack of assistance would have led to her death? What if I could have changed the fabric of time?
Don't you sometimes just wish that you could just simply travel into the past and prevent certain events from happening? I do, but I fear this will alter the space time continuum which in turn will alter the current reality. Every decision that was made must remain. What if someone prevented imp0rtant historic characters from doing there duties? For example, what if the south won the war? Our fabric of time could be completely different.
In the end, the older lady cleared her exam in the hospital and will be returning home by Wednesday. These events make all of us just imagine and question what we could have done. While contemplating this, I searched within myself and found artifacts of my character. I found more purpose in why I am at this school, I was renewed and strengthened. My replenishment is long lived and thrived upon. I now know what must be done in my life. I know that I must not falter in my quest.
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Wow, that is crazy. Hey, be thankful that you have found your purpose though. Keep striving to accomplish that purpose with all you are.
i'm glad you found hope in your feelings of uselessness. I wish you well on your quest to find the truth about God's will for your life.
Wow - this extremely well written and encouraging!!!
Keep going. Hope everything works out for you!
All things work for the glory of God. I have heard this many times throughout my life, whether from my parents or my pastor, it has invariably been true to me in all situations. In your thoughts about 'I wish I could have done more' and 'Man, why did I not think to act quick enough', realize that had you tried to help that lady, if you do not know first aid, many negative things could have come from that, you could have been sued for trying to help her (As ridiculous as this sounds, watch Judge Judy for a couple of days, you will understand.), you could have hurt her more, or worse...I won't get into the nature of this, as I don't intend for this to be totally depressing and morose, but you can imagine what worse is. Perhaps your nonaction caused her quick recovery, maybe your conscience held you back, God was there in that moment, as he is in all moments, and he could have been saying, "No, I have set another apart for this task." Don't get down on yourself about what you did not do, and remember, "all things work for the glory of God."
I am leaving two comments, mostly because I have two reflections on what your blog said.
You have excellent points, rather you point at some deep things. Your language is very adjective oriented, but somethings confuse me. i.e., in the third paragraph, you speak of contemplating your character, finding artifacts of your character, being renewed and strengthened, being replenished, knowing what must be done, having a quest, and some more existential observations, but what sort of artifacts did you find? What about this situation renewed you? What must be done? What quest are you on? I am curious to know. I think this kind of creative writing, almost like unmetered poetry, gives a natural draw to your writing, people read it, and want to keep reading. I enjoyed this approach, but it left me questioning what you really thought about. What specific things did you discover about yourself?
Very insightful. Not many people can look that deeply into themselves.
The best thing you could have done for the lady was pray. Prayer is most powerful and I am a firm believer in the power of prayer.
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